I want to live a life greater than myself. Chasing more money, chasing more opportunity, having better sex, having more sex, having more good relationships, having better relationships, having better self confidence, having better body image/body, getting a promotion, among thousands of examples, being more than what we are today is what motivates us and chasing these things give us a sense of happiness. But you see the entire thing is not in the thing or the concept to be had in the chasing. I will never get to the finish line if I remain in my out-of-the-box operating system. I will my entire life be forever chasing, and never getting ‘there’. It is amazing that this can be enough to fuel an entire human’s life span. I have to create my own operating system. Otherwise I will run out of energy – I will run out of motivation, I will run out of time manifesting my highest aspiration of myself because my operating system dictates I must chase these things. Well what happens when you are no longer interested in any of it? It is not a bad thing that I get to the finish line simply by removing my desire to chase. By being aware and calling out the fallacy of the chase. Yes, now in this transitory period that is why everything is losing interest for me and it is a very scary abyss to be entering but it is truth as I have discovered it. Yes, there is a massive disconnect that is occurring – but it is necessary because otherwise I will be hitched to too many limiting factors in my pursuit of my life’s purpose. There very much is a feeling of ‘me’ dying. There is so much of what my ego held as its interpretation of ‘me’ that is letting go through my thoughtful force. It (my ego) wants to maintain it. But its vision is short sighted. Yes I can remain on this treadmill forever and proceed as everyone else who hasn’t had this awakening does. I am not going to accept these fallacies to stand in my way. I am unwilling to trade my soul’s desires of expression anymore. I can not ‘trade’ any of my body, or my time, or my life for money. I have to fulfill my purpose and because it has value and if I can deliver it – Money will come. If I entertain the idea of ‘what if it doesn’t?’ Then I am operating from fear, and operating from fear will never express my soul’s desire, and will inevitably lead me to create far less value, thus creating far less money. Can I jump? My ego is still holding on… I must continue to strip it of its power.
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"Chasing more money, chasing more opportunity, having better sex, having more sex, having more good relationships, having better relationships, having better self confidence, having better body image/body, getting a promotion, among thousands of examples, being more than what we are today is what motivates us and chasing these things give us a sense of happiness. I will never get to the finish line if I remain in my out-of-the-box operating system. I will my entire life be forever chasing, and never getting ‘there’. "
ReplyDeleteThat's the illusion right...that there is someplace else to be, that if only by doing such and such a thing we will be whole? The ego is sneaky, sneaky.